This weekend flew by. I had my stupid stunt on Friday, which I feel a little better about. I just need to focus on what's best for me and try to talk myself out of being that stupid ever again......
Friday afternoon I picked the little brother up from the bus stop. Our parents went out of town for the weekend to celebrate their 10th anniversary, so it was my duty as the big sister to watch him and be a single parent for the weekend. Wow do I have the upmost respect for a single parent now. It was pretty exhausting. Worrying about me and then worrying about him - and keeping him entertained.....Props to all who do it. It wasn't that rough, but it was definately a task to keep the little guy busy!
Friday night we went to my friend's house for bible study. We ate dinner, my little brother played with his toys, and we had bible study. One of our friends is a music teacher and his percussion section was putting on a little preview concert that evening - so we went after our bible study was completed. I know my little brother really enjoyed that - as he was bopping his head along ;)
Saturday he woke me up at 630 am (ugh) and we ate breakfast, got ready for the day, and headed over to my friend Autumn's house for a Pampered Chef party. After the party my friend Autumn, my other friend Jenni, my little brother, and I went to watch Gnomeo and Juliet. It was absolutely adorable! Such a cute kids movie - and an extra bonus: Elton John music! ......Ba,Ba,Ba, Bennie and the Jets..... ;)
Saturday evening all 4 of us headed back to my parents house and ate pizza and then once my little brother went to bed, us girls enjoyed an evening of chick flicks and vegging out!! It was so needed and I'm so thankful for these amazing friends that God has put into my life. They left around midnight and I fell asleep after, to be awoken around 7am this morning. My little bro and I went to church, then out to eat with my friends....and now he's home with Mommy and Daddy after a fun-filled weekend with his sister.
I really enjoyed his company this weekend. He hardly gave me any problems, as he's a very well behaved kid. I was thinking during church today how much my life has changed from a year ago .....and a year ago is when I first started getting into church again. I'm so incredibly thankful for everything and how God is working on my life. I can't wait to see what's next....... (and hopefully along the way I won't do stupid stuff to divert from what He wants).
February 20, 2011
February 18, 2011
I suck.
Have you ever done something that you knew was not a good idea? Well I did, and now I'm left being disappointed in myself.
I suck. I suck. I suck.....I completely 100% suck. I did something I cannot take back. I am afraid it may hurt me in the future. I'm afraid I may have hurt other people too. I've been continuously beating myself up throughout the day. I know God is up there shaking his head and wondering why I do such stupid stuff.
I suck. I suck. I suck.....I completely 100% suck. I did something I cannot take back. I am afraid it may hurt me in the future. I'm afraid I may have hurt other people too. I've been continuously beating myself up throughout the day. I know God is up there shaking his head and wondering why I do such stupid stuff.
February 17, 2011
OMGosh moments....
This week has been full of OMGosh moments. Take today for instance, someone walks into the office and rattles off a name and is like 'I'm here to meet with Darcy about community service'. I look at him and say, 'there is no Darcy and we do not do community service here - this is CMS - we're a medical company'. He then goes on mumbling something about talking to someone. After telling him a few times that this is not the suite he wants, I directed him to go downstairs to the directory and all the companies are listed. Then he goes to leave and instead of pushing on the door he keeps pulling on the handle and starts getting frustrated. I finally said - push please - and he was like "Oh....*mumble, mumble, mumble*". At no point in any of this conversation did this gentleman, who I believe to be under the influence of something, say thank you. OMGosh people are so rude and seriously not smart at all. I mean - if I were going to go somewhere I would make sure I knew who I spoke to, where they were located, etc. ....But I should not be shocked by this instance as this is a weekly occurance. Not from this gentleman but from all the people who walk into this building, somehow find their way to the 5th floor, and come to me like I'm the building directory. I've had people come in here and ask to use my cell phone. Ask for cigarettes (of which I do not smoke), and even have the audacity to ask for money. WTH? On days like today I'm forced to shake my head and sigh heavily....
Another OMGosh moment this week .....My friends have been telling me a certain someone has a crush on me. This always happens to me. It's always the ones you don't like that just happen to like you. He seems like a nice guy but he is totally not someone I would date for various reasons. They are not shallow reasons, but I know what I want and I'm not going to settle for less. I was hoping that they had it all wrong and my name was showing up in conversation over and over just because.....but instead it became obvious when this fellow started texting me. Sigh. I don't mind being a friend to someone, but I have this feeling he's got his mind on more and I just want to cry because I hate hurting people. Rejection is never fun. I'm hoping this this situation just passes me by but OMGosh why does this keep happening to me?
Another OMGosh moment this week .....My friends have been telling me a certain someone has a crush on me. This always happens to me. It's always the ones you don't like that just happen to like you. He seems like a nice guy but he is totally not someone I would date for various reasons. They are not shallow reasons, but I know what I want and I'm not going to settle for less. I was hoping that they had it all wrong and my name was showing up in conversation over and over just because.....but instead it became obvious when this fellow started texting me. Sigh. I don't mind being a friend to someone, but I have this feeling he's got his mind on more and I just want to cry because I hate hurting people. Rejection is never fun. I'm hoping this this situation just passes me by but OMGosh why does this keep happening to me?
February 16, 2011
V-Day Lowdown....
I should have written this on Valentine's Day (aka SAD - Single's Awareness Day) but I honestly have been the worst blogger ever. My apologies - but hey, as far as I know hardly anyone reads this blog anyway so I doubt anyone was really missing much. :)
Valentine's Day is probably the worst holiday ever in my books. It's a made up Hallmark holiday. Do people in relationships really need 1 day a year to confess how much they love the person they are with? Personally, I feel that you should show your love 365 days a year. Who am I to say anything though - this V-Day as well as all the previous ones I've been basically single. I have never celebrated V-Day. I've never gotten that special card from that special person. I've never gotten flowers from a guy. I've never been wined & dined. My friend once sent me a rose plant, which was totally nice of her but I know it was because she knew I'd be wallowing in my own self-pity. I just loathe this holiday. It's not like us single people need another thing to make us feel slightly crappy about ourselves. So, I must listen all day long about their nice jewelry, gifts, dinners, cards, how much they love one another, blah blah blah. Call me bitter - I don't care. I know without a doubt that God has plans for me - has that special person picked out that will one day make all my loathing of V-Day go away, but until that day I will sit and daydream about a man who will care enough to tell me he loves me not only on V-Day but the other 364 days, too.
So my V-Day (aka SAD) was not as horrible as years past. I attend a bible study on Monday nights so we ended up going out to dinner. Needless to say - most everyone in the group has recently coupled up. Luckily my guy friend (who is single also) stated that he'd like to go so I wasn't the only single person there with a bunch of couples! Two other single people showed up towards the end of dinner. It worked out perfectly too, because I've been trying to get this guy friend more involved in church and I knew that he would fit in with my friends. We ate dinner at Smokey Bones (but as soon as I got there I headed to the bar for my 'I hate V-Day' drink --- a Bahama Mama). After dinner, some of us decided to go to a bar for drinks (more for me, please) and pool. It was a blast - and definately what I needed to get me out of my funk. I'm so thankful for my friends.
Valentine's Day is probably the worst holiday ever in my books. It's a made up Hallmark holiday. Do people in relationships really need 1 day a year to confess how much they love the person they are with? Personally, I feel that you should show your love 365 days a year. Who am I to say anything though - this V-Day as well as all the previous ones I've been basically single. I have never celebrated V-Day. I've never gotten that special card from that special person. I've never gotten flowers from a guy. I've never been wined & dined. My friend once sent me a rose plant, which was totally nice of her but I know it was because she knew I'd be wallowing in my own self-pity. I just loathe this holiday. It's not like us single people need another thing to make us feel slightly crappy about ourselves. So, I must listen all day long about their nice jewelry, gifts, dinners, cards, how much they love one another, blah blah blah. Call me bitter - I don't care. I know without a doubt that God has plans for me - has that special person picked out that will one day make all my loathing of V-Day go away, but until that day I will sit and daydream about a man who will care enough to tell me he loves me not only on V-Day but the other 364 days, too.
So my V-Day (aka SAD) was not as horrible as years past. I attend a bible study on Monday nights so we ended up going out to dinner. Needless to say - most everyone in the group has recently coupled up. Luckily my guy friend (who is single also) stated that he'd like to go so I wasn't the only single person there with a bunch of couples! Two other single people showed up towards the end of dinner. It worked out perfectly too, because I've been trying to get this guy friend more involved in church and I knew that he would fit in with my friends. We ate dinner at Smokey Bones (but as soon as I got there I headed to the bar for my 'I hate V-Day' drink --- a Bahama Mama). After dinner, some of us decided to go to a bar for drinks (more for me, please) and pool. It was a blast - and definately what I needed to get me out of my funk. I'm so thankful for my friends.
February 04, 2011
Whoa, ice storm!
Geez, I haven't updated in a while. I blame it on the lousy weather and my grouchy attitude lately. This week here in Indiana we had a lovely ice storm....complete with 2 inches of ice and then snow, and wind gusts of up to 40 mph. It was fabulous *note the sarcasm*. I ended up staying home from work on Tuesday and Wednesday - as the news channel stated that if you are not essential staff, stay home from work. I didn't believe I was essential ;) ....plus I can handle snow, but driving on pure ice makes me a little nervous. My 30th b-day is coming up in March and I'd like to live to see it!
Wednesday I headed outside to start removing the ice from my car. At first I thought that I was never going to bust through the ice to even get inside my driver's side car door. It took me 15 minutes of beating the ice to get it to crack, chiseling away, and pulling on the car handle to finally get inside. I started up my car and then walked around beating the ice with my ice scrapper. I must have looked like a mad woman. .....Total of 45 minutes and only one fatality - my poor ice scrapper!
It's been a lovely week......BUT on a good note: I only had to work Monday, Thursday, and Friday....and my 2nd job for some reason gave me the whole weekend off so I'm gonna have a great weekend resting, getting things done, and enjoying some Super Bowl festivities! :)
Wednesday I headed outside to start removing the ice from my car. At first I thought that I was never going to bust through the ice to even get inside my driver's side car door. It took me 15 minutes of beating the ice to get it to crack, chiseling away, and pulling on the car handle to finally get inside. I started up my car and then walked around beating the ice with my ice scrapper. I must have looked like a mad woman. .....Total of 45 minutes and only one fatality - my poor ice scrapper!
It's been a lovely week......BUT on a good note: I only had to work Monday, Thursday, and Friday....and my 2nd job for some reason gave me the whole weekend off so I'm gonna have a great weekend resting, getting things done, and enjoying some Super Bowl festivities! :)
January 25, 2011
Pasta - magnificent!
I made the most awesome pasta dinner tonight. I'm quite proud of myself. I call this 'Pasta Yummy'
Pasta Yummy
1 box pasta (I used Smart Taste)
1 jar of spaghetti sauce (I used Meijer tomato/basil)
1 package of fresh mushrooms
1 package of turkey sausage, sliced
1 small package of fat free mozzerella
1. Preheat oven to 350 degrees. In a large pan, bring water to a boil. Cook pasta 8-10 minutes.
2. After pasta is cooked and drained, put in bowl. Mix spaghetti sauce, mushrooms, and turkey sausage together.
3. Place in 13x9 greased pan. Top with cheese.
4. Bake 25-30 minutes, or until cheese is bubbly.
I should be a chef. ;)
Pasta Yummy
1 box pasta (I used Smart Taste)
1 jar of spaghetti sauce (I used Meijer tomato/basil)
1 package of fresh mushrooms
1 package of turkey sausage, sliced
1 small package of fat free mozzerella
1. Preheat oven to 350 degrees. In a large pan, bring water to a boil. Cook pasta 8-10 minutes.
2. After pasta is cooked and drained, put in bowl. Mix spaghetti sauce, mushrooms, and turkey sausage together.
3. Place in 13x9 greased pan. Top with cheese.
4. Bake 25-30 minutes, or until cheese is bubbly.
I should be a chef. ;)
Back amongst the living.
WooHoo! I'm back amongst the living. I feel much better today. Been fighting the flu Thursday through Saturday, and recovering Sunday and yesterday. I skipped out on Zumba and bible study last night to get some much needed rest. Luckily I woke up this morning feeling much, much better! My muscles are still a little sore, but nothing compared to yesterday. I feel like myself again!
Is it crazy?
Sometimes I enjoy my alone time. Granted, not every day I like to be alone - but sometimes I get peace in just being by myself, doing nothing but lounging around and reading a good book or listening to music. Although I'm single and I do really have a lot of alone time, I feel like I rarely ever really get to enjoy it. I'm always on the go, and working two jobs is starting to really annoy me. I can't find time to finish reading my books that I've started and never completely finished (I'm bad at that, especially lately).
So I've been thinking to myself - what's a better way to catch up on some reading, find peace in just being me, and have some quality thinking time.....Well, that would be to take a vacation, alone. The thought has never occured to me, but I feel it's something that would be absolutely amazing. I think I would really enjoy it. I do take pride that I'm an independant woman - and being so, I should be able to go on vacation alone without people wondering if I've lost my marbles. I, of course, would choose a sunny, warm, beach area! I'm thinking something in the Florida area. It would have to be all-inclusive, as I really think those are the way to go sometimes! .....but then I come back to thinking about my responsibility as an adult, to pay off debts and earn a decent savings. I would be putting a financial strain on myself if I did indulge in such a vacation.
Would it be crazy to take a vacation anyways?
Is it crazy?
Sometimes I enjoy my alone time. Granted, not every day I like to be alone - but sometimes I get peace in just being by myself, doing nothing but lounging around and reading a good book or listening to music. Although I'm single and I do really have a lot of alone time, I feel like I rarely ever really get to enjoy it. I'm always on the go, and working two jobs is starting to really annoy me. I can't find time to finish reading my books that I've started and never completely finished (I'm bad at that, especially lately).
So I've been thinking to myself - what's a better way to catch up on some reading, find peace in just being me, and have some quality thinking time.....Well, that would be to take a vacation, alone. The thought has never occured to me, but I feel it's something that would be absolutely amazing. I think I would really enjoy it. I do take pride that I'm an independant woman - and being so, I should be able to go on vacation alone without people wondering if I've lost my marbles. I, of course, would choose a sunny, warm, beach area! I'm thinking something in the Florida area. It would have to be all-inclusive, as I really think those are the way to go sometimes! .....but then I come back to thinking about my responsibility as an adult, to pay off debts and earn a decent savings. I would be putting a financial strain on myself if I did indulge in such a vacation.
Would it be crazy to take a vacation anyways?
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